Gratitude 1

My sister mentioned doing a 40 days of gratitude challenge, so I think I'll try it as well.  Good reason to write every day, too. I just don't write enough anymore.

Today I am grateful for: my sisters.

This certainly isn't a new revelation.  I've long declared my deep gratitude for them.  I grew up with just one, and she beat on me and we fought and shared a room.  At times it was terrible.  But there were other times when it was the only thing that saved me.  As adults, I don't know how I would cope without her. She is my emotional rock, my balance.  Where I am emotional broken and volatile and weak, she is a rock of calm.  Granted, it's because she buries her emotions and ignores them. But she's so stubborn.  As we face the waning years of our parents, the only solace i have is knowing I'm facing it with her. I get a lot more than I give with her, I know.  It's the one really selfish relationship I have. I try to give more, but like I said, she's very stubborn.  She's got the big sister thing down.

My eldest sister is newer addition.  I've always known about her, thankfully, but never met her until 2014.  She's my half sister, from my Dad's first marriage.  I am fortunate because my mother always made sure we knew we had a sister.  She was never rude or mean about it, except to Dad.  She was mad that he and didn't talk to his daughter more, have her visit more, allow her to have sisters.  But over the years we grew up and talked to each other on our own.  It was slow going, as happens when life is in the way.  But with Facebook we ended up being Sisters, not half-sisters.  I can't explain it.  I love this woman with my whole heart. I love my brother-in-law and nephew, too, with everything I am.  So now she has two sisters to help her through the happy and the sad.  And we have another crazy woman who goes through the same mental shite we do, and gets it, and loves us, and is there.  I am so fucking lucky and fortunate to have these two incredible woman in my life.  I learn from them.  And my heart fills to bursting thinking about them. <3 p="">

Blogging

I think I need to return to a long form blog. Sometimes I just need to get thoughts out of my head, and FB just isn't it. And I think this little corner of the internet that few ppl visit.

So, Muzing won't just be about music anymore. But it will be sometimes. I'll still keep reading over at Bibliorantics - it would be good for me to write like that again, too.